Queen Jessie's words of wisdom

[Jessie Kowalski]

I do love that Elissa and Jack are nominated for the reason James gave, which was that they wouldn't evict Porsche hahaha. burn! BUT, I still think Porsche needs to go this week. Not even a question!
So, I'd love to win this damn veto to save Elissa OR to see Elissa win it so that Porsche HOPEFULLY goes up. If Elissa doesn't evict Porsche, I will seriously disown her this time though. This will be her chance to do it.
Anyway, I'm happy I'm safe and that James seems to trust me. This is good and I hope I can make it through the week and then win HOH please God.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I'm definitely not voting Elissa out if I can save her this week. I want to go against what Rachel wants because at this point, it's just too easy for her to take it all and win it. Unfortunately, I'm not totally convinced that Porsche will keep her so I'm just waiting to get the confirmation. I guess on some level, it would be best if Porsche wants Elissa gone because then I won't break ties with James, but I just don't want Elissa to go. I need her in this game.
Oh, and I should celebrate the fact that I made it to Final 5 YAY. That's awesome.

[Jessie Kowalski]

Rachel or James is dragging my name in the mud and I will find out which one of them it is.

[Jessie Kowalski]

Seems to me that Porsche is now in the best position in the game. She just lost Elissa [assuming she really did go through with evicting her], but they've basically isolated me... leaving room for me to try and make some new deals.
I'm really upset over how this game is playing out for me. Every time there is someone I feel extremely close to, they end up evicted and most likely by the hands of Rachel. I'm honestly so sick of it, I can't even tell you.
I know I had the opportunity to get rid of her during my HOH, but at the same time, she's been an ally of mine and has kept me in the loop throughout the entire game. If she couldn't win her way to the end, she'd have likely been nominated ages ago. People are so scared to come after her because she can veto herself off and then come after them the following week. I get that, but at F5, the move has got to get done. I guess she had a good strategy and has made quite a few moves, but other people like Porsche and I have had to rely solely on our social games to ensure our safety every other week. I'd have a harder time selling my game against someone like Porsche who had strong relationships with people like I did, than I would against Rachel who played a different game than me. Still, I feel like my best shot at winning this game would be against Jack LOL. meh.

I know that I haven't been a very strong presence in this game and I know that my inability to win competitions and my closeness to Rachel will make me look bad to a lot of people, but I think when you try and see it from another perspective, it's not necessarily bad. I'm at the F5 despite having won no more than 1 competition [maybe because I can't win them? lol], but mostly because the people who've won HOHs have all been people I've been close to and had a strong relationship with. They felt comfortable with me despite the fact that I haven't given them much in return. That's definitely due to a strong social game. And then my relationship with Rachel was utilized like CRAZY to my advantage. I didn't have to win all those HOHs because she went ahead and won them. I'm the reason Elissa stayed the week she did and have always managed to move forward during setbacks. I can't say that I had influence in this game, because I didn't. If I did, I would have been able to save Shane, Dominic and Elissa. What I was able to do was accept my loss and make new deals and just move forward. I hope I'm not a major disappointment.

After realizing Elissa was a goner, I sent Porsche a PM explaining what happened the week I was HOH and why I decided to nominate her. The conversation was alright I guess, but I'm trying to open the door to more communication between the two of us. If I had HOH in my hands at this very moment, I'd nominate Rachel and Porsche most likely. Within a day or 2, depending on how this conversation with Porsche plays out, it could turn into Rachel and James. The obvious nominations would be Porsche and Jack. I'm sure Rachel and James would expect that, but the fact that those 2 are obviously working together and the fact that they've trashed me to Porsche in order to have her evict Elissa, makes me SO angry... I want to be completely done with the two of them. I hope Porsche and I can work out a deal and then I end up winning HOH.

[Jessie Kowalski]

This has got to be a joke... She can't even lose LUCK based challenges? Wtf? I'm so annoyed, I don't even know where to begin.
Over it.

[Jessie Kowalski]

This is the most annoying outcome. Not to be rude and it's nothing personal against Rachel, but this is ridiculous. The fact that she got the highest number in picking a coordinate and the majority sucks question is just a damn joke to be quite honest.
And another thing that pisses me off is that in theory, I could have still won if people had done the video challenge. If Rachel had gotten 0 points and I had gotten 5, I would be the HOH right now, not her. So I am definitely a little upset over that as well. How can someone have so much luck in their favor? HOW?!

And it's not even that I think I'm in danger of leaving [which could very well be what ends up happening], it's that Rachel has this game won and I can't do anything about it because I suck terribly at competitions. SO FRUSTRATINGGGGGGGGG.

god. When Rachel sees this after the game, she will probably be upset with me lol, but it's SO not personal, I don't see why she'd be offended.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I'm not saying that rachel isn't right in that I've been wanting to come after her because obviously she is, but the PM she sent me does not sit well with me AT ALL. How nauseating.

Dec 5, 2013 12:53:33 GMT -6 Rachel Plencner said:

Hey, sorry I haven't been around, Thanksgiving ended up busier than I thought and now Im in the midst of studying for finals. It's not a good thing bc when I wanted to talk to you a few days ago it was very important.

The day I sent you that PM, I had received a PM about you being in newbies alliance, and that I was a target that needed to go, and it didn't matter at this point to you if I got evicted before or after Porsche. It's not something I want to believe but it's also something that's not farfetched either. Here's what I'm going to do. I don't know what to believe right now. Jack is going up, and James is going to vote against him. I'm going to put you up, but listen, you have my vote in the tie. This isn't something I want to do but it's really hard for me to ignore. I'll try to make myself available tonight. It's my friend's bday so I'm probably going out, but I'm gonna leave mobile up with notifications on, so we can talk there. I'm sorry. I hope you don't hate me.

She's such a liar, it's sick. Let's be real. She, James and Porsche came to an understanding. One of them is going to get 3rd and will kick themselves for it. She is playing such a dirty game and I personally would never award her for it... Especially since the only reason she's been safe this whole time was because she's either won HOH or veto for the last several weeks. I HATE that. Not only because I couldn't beat her, but because I just don't like it when people have to rely so much on winning. I find porsche's game WAY more exciting.

Rachel acts like I'm not her target... Bullshit. Even if it were true, I don't care. She couldn't PM me to ask what that was all about? I don't believe her. I don't think anyone came to her about a newbie alliance. She's a liar,

[Jessie Kowalski]

Not to be annoying, but James does have an advantage over us with the tiebreaker. Even if he came back much earlier, he knows where to begin at least.

[Chenbot]

I took all of that out of the prejury house

[Jessie Kowalski]

ok

im still working on the veto btw. its just that ive been at work and couldnt really work on it today... i hope thats okay.

[Jessie Kowalski]

Take me away, I'm ready!

This sucks. I have to suck up to rachel and if she doesn't use veto, i then need to suck up to James, Porsche AND rachel. Nauseating.