Queen Jessie's words of wisdom

[Jessie Kowalski]

Can't believe I went through with it. Finally, a move under my belt. Now let's see if it bites me in the ass! So, I believe that Porsche is flying under the radar right now. She is definitely someone to look out for.
My issue with the coming HOH is that I have 2 people to choose from to nominate: Porsche and Jack. Those two would be my ideal nominations. The problem with this is that considering my competition skills, I feel like one of them will for sure come off the block. And then who do I nominate? Not Rachel. Not Andrew. Not Elissa. James? Dominic? I don't really want to. It's complicated, but I also don't want to throw it. It's risky.
At the same time, someone like Porsche or Andrew winning could mean Dominic and James on the block. One comes off... either Elissa or me go up on the block.
If Dom or James win HOH, I foresee a Rachel/Porsche nomination. That would be ideal. If Elissa wins, it's probably Rachel vs Andrew. Almost worst cast scenario [after me being nominated] because I screwed them this week and I love them both.

So much to consider. I hope I didn't fuck up too much.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I don't think I'm going to throw HOH. If I win and one of my nominees happen to come down, I'll just have to deal with getting my hands dirty. I like Porsche and Jack alright, but I feel like they'd nominate me for sure.
Andrew is definitely bringing in the "cutesy" stuff. I feel like I upset him way more than he admits. I wish I had some spies, but I don't. No one is going to reveal much to me. However, if I win HOH, I'm sure information will be pouring in from all sides. This is when I'll know exactly what's up. I feel like Porsche will likely pour her heart and soul to me in exchange for safety and I might just do that for her... depending on what kind of information I get.
As of right now, Idk what I'd do with Elissa, Rachel and Andrew nominated against each other.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I want this HOH so badly, it's killing me. I want information and I want to use that information to make a move. I have a feeling I will get ample reasons to come after Andrew and Rachel and if not, then I'll have learned that they were my allies throughout. I honestly believe they are with each other moreso than anyone else and I want to have a hand in breaking them up. I have to admit that I don't really want to though. I love them both so much that it actually physically pains me that I'm even considering this. It's just that after evicting Jun over Elissa, I don't think they will ever trust me like they did before. And I also think that having been the main reason behind Elissa staying [unless Porsche is trying to make it seem like she was waiting on me so that I get the shit from all of this lol], people may start seeing me as an actual threat.
I also don't want to lose sight of Porsche. I really think she needs to go. The idea of her and Elissa having "masterminded" this last round to make me look like the "traitor" scares the hell out of me. Considering how close those 2 supposedly are, it does make my mind wander. Now I'm just rambling.

Ideal boot order:

Porsche
Jack
Dominic
James
Rachel
Andrew
Elissa

~because I'm dumb and i love Rachel/Andrew so much.

Gamewise:

Porsche
Jack
Rachel
Dominic
Andrew
James
Elissa

[Jessie Kowalski]

This challenge is really annoying because the only possible way to win this HOH is by not competing in the following POV, which is kind of ridiculous tbh. It doesn't make sense to put such a target on your back with an HOH win and then not be able to compete for safety in the following week. You have no control over who wins it so you can end up screwed. I hope Dominic, James or Elissa win this HOH. I hope I didn't bid too high on the POV one because I actually don't want to give up the right to play in POV next week. My issue is that I definitely do not want to look like I threw it.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I HAVE TO YELL IN HERE TOO? THAT'S CRAZY! i FEEL WEIRD. THIS IS UGLY AS HELL TBH. OKAY. SO, I'M REALLY EXCITED TO HAVE WON HOH. I'M PRETTY SURE I'M GOING TO NOMINATE PORSCHE AND JACK, BUT OF COURSE I'LL GIVE THEM THE CHANCE TO FIGHT FOR THEIR RIGHT TO PARTAAAAY. NAH. I'M SOOOO HAPPY I DIDN'T THROW BECAUSE THAT MEANS JACK WOULD HAVE WON AND THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN A VERY MESSY DISASTER. I DON'T TRUST HIM AT ALL. I ACTUALLY FEEL BAD ABOUT NOMINATING PORSCHE BECAUSE I DO LIKE HER, BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH EVERYONE ELSE AND THEY'RE NOT THREATS TO MY GAME. OF COURSE, RACHEL AND ANDREW ARE GOING TO BE SUPER CONFUSED BY MY NOMINATIONS, BUT IDRC. THIS IS AN INDIVIDUAL'S GAME AND I DON'T SEE ANYTHING POSITIVE COMING FROM NOMINATING DOMINIC AND JAMES. THEY'RE MY ALLIES AND THEY HAVE MY BACK. PORSCHE AND JACK ARE TWO PEOPLE I DO NOT HAVE A CLOSE GAME-RELATED RELATIONSHIP WITH. I DON'T TRUST THEM WITH INFORMATION AND I DON'T THINK THEY TRUST ME. STILL, I WILL GIVE THEM A CHANCE TO TRY AND SWAY ME. IF THEY CAN GIVE ME SOME HARDCORE COMPELLING EVIDENCE THAT PROVES THAT RACHEL AND ANDREW HAVE OTHER PRIORITIES OTHER THAN MYSELF, I'D STRONGLY CONSIDER GOING AGAINST THEM. I DON'T WANT TO, BUT IF THERE'S PROOF THEY'RE NOT REALLY WITH ME, I'LL CUT THEM LOOSE.
EITHER WAY, I HOPE TO JUICE THIS HOH BADBOY LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW. WOOHOO.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I SUCK AT THIS INFORMATION GETTING THING. I REALLY TRULY DO. I WANT PORSCHE TO POUR HER HEART AND SOUL TO ME, BUT SHE'S BEING CAUTIOUS. I UNDERSTAND HER BECAUSE SHE IS PROBABLY AFRAID I'D USE IT AGAINST HER. EVERYONE HAS TO BE CAUTIOUS WHEN TALKING TO THE HOH. I FEEL BAD. I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND WHERE SHE IS COMING FROM.
I JUST REALLY WANT TO FIGURE ANDREW AND RACHEL OUT. I WANT TO UNDERSTAND THEM AND THEIR GAMES.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I'M HAVING A BIT OF TOUGH TIME WITH THESE NOMINATIONS. I WANT TO JUST GO AHEAD AND NOMINATE PORSCHE AND JACK AND JUST GET RID OF ONE OF THEM, BUT I FEAR IT COMING BACK TO BITE ME. I'M ALSO AFRAID OF THE NOMINATIONS CHANGING. ARG. WHY AM I SO STRESSED?!

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THIS GAME HAS OFFICIALLY GOTTEN TO ME. I FEEL SO LOW RIGHT NOW. I DON'T THINK I CAN TRUST ANYONE. RACHEL IS IN IT FOR HER OWN GAME. ANDREW'S BEEN CLOSE TO PORSCHE THROUGHOUT THE GAME AND ELISSA SEEMS TO BE MY REAL ALLY, BUT BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE SUCH A MORON, I'M QUESTIONING THAT TOO.

I HAVE THE NOMINATIONS ALL TYPED OUT. I'M READY TO SUBMIT BOTH JACK AND PORSCHE FOR THIS WEEK'S NOMS, BUT I'M UNSURE ABOUT IT BECAUSE OF ANDREW. I'M SO UPSET WITH HIM BECAUSE HE'S BEEN TALKING ABOUT ME TO PEOPLE AND THEN DENYING IT. I FINALLY GOT HIM TO ADMIT THAT HE HAS A STRONG RELATIONSHIP WITH PORSCHE OUTSIDE OF ME. I KNEW THIS ALREADY, BUT HE'S BEEN TRYING TO HIDE IT OBVIOUSLY. I GUESS I SHOULDN'T GET UPSET BECAUSE IT'S PART OF THE GAME, BUT I CAN'T HELP IT. HE'S DEFINITELY ONE OF THE STRONGEST SOCIAL PLAYERS IN HERE BECAUSE I FIND IT SO HARD TO EVEN CONSIDER TURNING ON HIM. THE SMART MOVE MAY BE TO NOMINATE ANDREW AGAINST PORSCHE. I SEE THE BENEFITS OF THAT BECAUSE OF THE POV SITUATION. BUT THEN AGAIN, HE AND I HAVE A STRONG RELATIONSHIP TOO AND I DON'T THINK HE'D NOMINATE ME. I DID QUESTION HIM A LOT THOUGH SO MAYBE NOW HE WOULD?

[Jessie Kowalski]

APPARENTLY PORSCHE THINKS I REMIND HER OF KATHLEEN BECAUSE I DO WHAT I WANT. IT'S VERY TRUE THAT KAT DOES, BUT THAT'S JUST SILLY! ANYWAY, I HOPE SHE ENJOYS MY SHRINE TO HER. IT'S A TESTAMENT TO HER SOCIAL GAME, REALLY. I ACTUALLY DON'T CARE WHO LEAVES BETWEEN THE TWO OF THEM. THEY'RE BOTH STRONG COMPETITORS AND BOTH WILL BE GUNNING FOR ME. I DO THINK THAT PORSCHE IS CLOSE TO ANDREW AND RACHEL AND SHE STILL HAS A RELATIONSHIP WITH ELISSA, SO I GUESS I'D PREFER IT IF SHE WERE TO LEAVE, BUT JACK IS SUCH A WILDCARD. I FEEL LIKE HIS CLOSENESS TO CERTAIN PEOPLE IN THE GAME IS VERY STRONG AND PROBABLY WOULDN'T EVEN LISTEN TO REASON. HE IS AFTER ME AND ANDREW... ACCORDING TO RACHEL. BY THE WAYYYYYY, I THINK RACHEL TRIED TO GET ME TO NOMINATE ANDREW VS PORSCHE. GUESS AGAIN. YOU WANT THAT DONE, DO IT YOURSELF HONEY. I REALLY HOPE HE DOESN'T VETO PORSCHE THOUGH.

[Jessie Kowalski]

MY CONVERSATIONS TODAY HAVE BEEN INTERESTING, BUT HAVE ONLY GOTTEN MUCH MORE INTERESTING CLOSER TO NOMINATIONS BEING POSTED. RACHEL CAME TO ME SAYING THAT SHE'S HEARD FROM ANDREW THAT I WAS NOMINATING HER. WTF. WHY WOULD HE SAY THAT? I THEN CONFRONTED HIM OVER IT AND HE DENIES IT LIKE CRAZY. IDK WHY, BUT I BELIEVE HIM BECAUSE I'M SUCKER WHEN IT COMES TO HIM. IT'S QUITE PATHETIC. BUT ANYWAY. RACHEL WAS TELLING ME ALL THESE THINGS ABOUT HOW ANDREW THINKS HE HAS ME IN HIS BACK POCKET. I TOLD HIM ABOUT THAT WITHOUT MENTIONING WHO TOLD ME. HE WAS OFFENDED BY THAT. HE FINALLY ADMITTED THAT HE'S BEEN SUPER CLOSE TO PORSCHE AND ASIDE FOR ME, SHE'S THE ONLY OTHER PERSON HE'D STICK HIS NECK OUT FOR. ON TOP OF THAT, I SHOWED HIM THAT THE REASON I BELIEVED RACHEL ABOUT THAT COMMENT WAS BECAUSE PORSCHE TOLD ME SHE RESPECTED THE FACT THAT I DO WHAT I WANT AND DON'T LISTEN TO OTHERS. FROM WHAT RACHEL SAID, PORSCHE SAID LAST ROUND THAT SHE DOESN'T BELIEVE ANDREW HAS ME IN HIS BACK POCKET BECAUSE I DO WHAT I WANT. THOSE ARE DEFINITELY WORDS COMING OUT OF HER MOUTH. HE SORT OF ADMITTED TO SAYING THAT, BUT THAT IT WAS NONESENSE. IT'S STUPID AND I WILL WRITE SOME MORE ABOUT IT TOMORROW. RIGHT NOW, I GTG TO BED. I HOPE I MADE THE RIGHT DECISION WITH MY NOMINATIONS.

[Ivette Corredero]

Oct 27, 2013 21:57:30 GMT -6 Jessie Kowalski said:

APPARENTLY PORSCHE THINKS I REMIND HER OF KATHLEEN BECAUSE I DO WHAT I WANT. IT'S VERY TRUE THAT KAT DOES, BUT THAT'S JUST SILLY! ANYWAY, I HOPE SHE ENJOYS MY SHRINE TO HER. IT'S A TESTAMENT TO HER SOCIAL GAME, REALLY. I ACTUALLY DON'T CARE WHO LEAVES BETWEEN THE TWO OF THEM. THEY'RE BOTH STRONG COMPETITORS AND BOTH WILL BE GUNNING FOR ME. I DO THINK THAT PORSCHE IS CLOSE TO ANDREW AND RACHEL AND SHE STILL HAS A RELATIONSHIP WITH ELISSA, SO I GUESS I'D PREFER IT IF SHE WERE TO LEAVE, BUT JACK IS SUCH A WILDCARD. I FEEL LIKE HIS CLOSENESS TO CERTAIN PEOPLE IN THE GAME IS VERY STRONG AND PROBABLY WOULDN'T EVEN LISTEN TO REASON. HE IS AFTER ME AND ANDREW... ACCORDING TO RACHEL. BY THE WAYYYYYY, I THINK RACHEL TRIED TO GET ME TO NOMINATE ANDREW VS PORSCHE. GUESS AGAIN. YOU WANT THAT DONE, DO IT YOURSELF HONEY. I REALLY HOPE HE DOESN'T VETO PORSCHE THOUGH.

stop tryna be me shir!! hahah

grats on hoh you ho

[Jessie Kowalski]

UGLY CAPS.

HI KAT

[Jessie Kowalski]

NERVOUS FOR POV. I WANT IT.

[Jessie Kowalski]

OBVIOUSLY I WOULD HAVE PREFERRED TO WIN THIS VETO, BUT DOMINIC OR JAMES WINNING IT IS FAR BETTER THAN RACHEL, PORSCHE OR JACK! THIS IS AMAZING.
THE REASON I WANT DOM TO WIN IT IN THE END IS BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE HE IS MORE REAL WITH ME AND I'D HOPE HE'D RESPECT ME ENOUGH TO NOT CHANGE MY NOMINATIONS. I THOUGHT ABOUT IT A LOT AND ALTHOUGH THE THOUGHT HAS CROSSED MY MIND A GAZILLION TIMES, I DON'T THINK IT'S SMART OF ME SPECIFICALLY TO COME AFTER RACHEL. ALTHOUGH SHE IS A HUGE THREAT TO NOT ONLY GET TO THE END, BUT WIN THE WHOLE THING, SHE IS ALSO SOMEONE THAT PROBABLY WILL NOT NOMINATE ME. EVEN IF SHE HAS OTHER STRONG RELATIONSHIPS IN THIS GAME, I FEEL LIKE UP UNTIL SHE IS SITTING IN THE F3 AND HAS TO ACTUALLY MAKE THAT F2 DECISION, SHE WON'T GO AGAINST ME. HOWEVER, I DO BELIEVE SHE WILL COME AFTER ELISSA, WHICH DOES SUCK.
PART OF ME WONDERS IF SHE'D NOMINATE ME AGAINST ELISSA THOUGH. THAT COULD BE BAD HM.
OKAY, MAYBE I'M NOT COMPLETELY DONE THINKING ABOUT THE SCENARIOS, LOL. I'LL HAVE A FEW CHATS WITH PEOPLE AND SEE WHAT'S ON THEIR MINDS.

[Jessie Kowalski]

IF VETO HAPPENS TO GET USED, I HOPE IT'S ON JACK AND NOT ON PORSCHE. IF DOM DOES USE IT ON JACK, I'D NOMINATE ANDREW AS THE REPLACEMENT. TBH, I THINK IT'S THE SMARTEST MOVE. I DON'T THINK PEOPLE WILL BE TEMPTED TO GET RID OF ANDREW WHEN HE'LL BE SITTING NEXT TO MISS PORSCHE ON THE NOMINATION CHAIRS. I FEEL LIKE SHE'S SEEN AS A HUGE THREAT AND IT JUST WOULDN'T MAKE SENSE TO EVICT ANDREW OVER HER [ALTHOUGH HE IS DEFINITELY A THREAT AS WELL].
IF I WERE TO NOMINATE RACHEL, SHE'D GET EVICTED WITHOUT A DOUBT. AND ALTHOUGH THAT'S NOT A BAD THING TO ADD TO MY RESUME, SHE IS SOMEONE I'LL HAVE IN THE FUTURE WHEREAS PORSCHE ISN'T. ANDREW ADMITTED HIS CLOSENESS TO PORSCHE, SO HE SHOULDN'T BE SURPRISED BY THIS. AND IF HE WAS JUST TRYING TO HIDE HIS CLOSENESS TO RACHEL, AT LEAST I CAN COUNT ON HER VOTE IN THE END WE'LL SEE I GUESS. I DO ADORE ANDREW, SO I'D HATE FOR HIM TO GET EVICTED BY ACCIDENT, BUT AT LEAST IT WOULD BE A STRONG PLAYER AS OPPOSED TO A JACK OR SOMETHING.
I ALMOST KIND OF HOPE DOM DOES USE VETO NOW

[Jessie Kowalski]

I HAVEN'T SPOKEN TO RACHEL IN A WHILE, BUT I WANTED TO SPEAK WITH HER. I WANTED TO TELL HER THAT PRACTICALLY EVERYONE WANTS ME TO BACKDOOR HER BUT THAT I'M NOT INTERESTED IN DOING THAT. I'LL SAY THAT BOTH ANDREW AND PORSCHE ALLUDED TO WANTING HER GONE AND BLAMING HER FOR ME NOMINATING PORSCHE. HOPEFULLY THAT WILL KEEP HER ON MY SIDE FOR A ROUND OR TWO, LOL.
ON TOP OF THAT, I'M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT IF SHE'D EVICT PORSCHE OVER JACK OR NOT. I NEED TO FEEL THESE PEOPLE OUT SO I'M GONNA TELL BOTH RACHEL AND ELISSA THAT DOM IS LIKELY NOT USING THE VETO. I'LL TALK TO THEM AS IF IT'S ABOUT THE VOTE BETWEEN JACK AND PORSCHE.

I REALLY HOPE TO HEAR THAT THEY'D VOTE PORSCHE, BUT WHO KNOWS. I'M NERVOUS.