Queen Jessie's words of wisdom

[Jessie Kowalski]

THIS IS SO ANNOYING. I WANT PORSCHE GONE THIS WEEK. I NOMINATED HER AS A BIG THREAT AND I FEEL LIKE NOW SHE HAS TO GO. THE FACT THAT RACHEL AND ANDREW DON'T WANT HER OUT JUST MAKES ME WANT HER GONE EVEN MORE! IT'S JUST FRUSTRATING THAT I ALMOST FEEL LIKE IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO ACCOMPLISH.
A FEW THINGS TO NOTE THOUGH:

-RACHEL FEELS COMFORTABLE ENOUGH TO TELL ME THAT SHE'S ALIGNED WITH PORSCHE
-ANDREW FEELS COMFORTABLE ENOUGH TO TELL ME HE IS CLOSE TO PORSCHE TOO
- THIS MAKES ME FEEL LIKE THEY FEEL CLOSE TO ME AS WELL

SO, IT WORRIES ME TO HAVE TO NOMINATE EITHER OF THEM UP FOR EVICTION BECAUSE THEY SEE ME AS THEIR ALLIES AT THIS POINT. IF I BREAK THEIR TRUST AND NOMINATE THEM, I COULD FIND MYSELF IN A STICKY SITUATION.
AT THE SAME TIME, THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO WAY IN HELL I AM NOMINATING JAMES OR ELISSA BECAUSE THEY'D GO FOR SURE.
MY ONLY OPTION WOULD BE TO NOMINATE ANDREW AND ALTHOUGH I DO FEEL LIKE I HAVE A GOOD REASON TO, IT'S RISKY NONETHELESS.

I WISH ELISSA WOULD JUST RESPOND TO MY PM.

[Jessie Kowalski]

OKAY SO ELISSA AND RACHEL BOTH EXPRESSED THAT THEY'D EVICT JACK OVER PORSCHE. THAT'S NOT GOOD AT ALL. I'VE GONE FROM STARTING THIS WEEK NOT CARING WHO LEFT OF THE TWO TO WANTING PORSCHE GONE ASAP, LOL.
SO, DOMINIC SHOULD BE USING THE VETO ON JACK AND I WILL NOMINATE ANDREW IN HIS PLACE.
I KNOW I'M RISKING AN ALLY, BUT IT COULD BE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN PORSCHE GETTING EVICTED AND JACK GETTING EVICTED.
AND IF THINGS GO WRONG AND ANDREW LEAVES, AT LEAST IT'S A THREAT AND NOT SOMEONE LIKE JACK WHO I COULD PROBABLY BEAT IN THE END.
I'M SO NERVOUS TO HAVE THAT CONVERSATION WITH ANDREW, BUT THERE'S NO CHOICE. HE NEEDS TO KNOW THAT I NEED FOR PORSCHE TO GO AND THE ONLY WAY THAT WILL HAPPEN IS IF HE'S NOMINATED AGAINST HER. HE MIGHT BE UPSET, BUT IT'S A SMALL PRICE TO PAY TO FINISH OFF THE WEEK WITH A STRONG PLAYER GETTING EVICTED.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I DON'T THINK THERE IS ANY WAY THAT PORSCHE IS GOING TO LEAVE THIS WEEK SO NOW IT'S ALL ABOUT NAMING A REPLACEMENT THAT WILL END UP GOING HOME, WHICH I HATE DOING.
I TOLD ANDREW I DON'T WANT TO RISK HIM, WHICH I DON'T, BUT THEN AGAIN... I DON'T HAVE MANY CHOICES. UGH. I ACTUALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I FEEL AWFUL NO MATTER WHAT.

[Jessie Kowalski]

NO MATTER WHO I NOMINATE, IT WILL TURN OUT BADLY FOR ME. AN ALLY OF MINE WILL BE GOING HOME. THE ONLY PERSON I WANT TO SEE LEAVE, WILL STILL BE IN THE GAME AFTER MY HOH. THE BEST BET IS TO NOMINATE ANDREW, BUT IT'S NO GUARANTEE.
PORSCHE IS CLOSELY ALIGNED WITH RACHEL, ELISSA AND ANDREW... MAYBE JACK. I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT JACK MAY BE THINKING IN THIS GAME AND I WISH HE WERE ONLINE TO TALK TO, BUT THIS KID DOESN'T SEEM TO UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT.
IM REALLY UPSET OVER THIS DECISION BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE ITS OBVIOUS WHO HAS TO GO, BUT EVERYONE JUST LOVES THE IDEA OF PLAYING THIS GAME FOR PORSCHE. I DON'T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHY RACHEL WANTS HER AROUND WHEN PORSCHE IS CLEARLY STILL CLOSE TO ELISSA AND ANDREW. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY JACK WOULD KEEP HER WHEN PORSCHE IS 100% CLOSER TO THE OTHER 3 THAN SHE IS TO HIM. I JUST CAN'T GRASP THE LOGIC BEHIND EVICTING ANYONE OTHER THAN HER. BUT YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT DEALS JACKS MAY HAVE WITH PORSCHE THAT SHE IS CLEARLY NOT GOING TO KEEP. ONE THING IS FOR SURE, FROM THE PEOPLE WHO ARE HELL BENT ON KEEPING PORSCHE AROUND, 3 OF THEM WILL STRONGLY REGRET IT. THE QUESTION IS, WHO AND WHY DON'T THEY RECOGNIZE THE RISKS. I ENDED UP SENDING JACK A PM ABOUT HOW DIFFICULT IT IS FOR ME TO FIND SOMEONE TO NOMINATE IN ORDER TO GET PORSCHE EVICTED. I TOLD HIM THAT SHE CAN'T POSSIBLY STAY LOYAL TO EVERYONE. I DON'T KNOW IF IT WILL SINK IN, BUT I HAVE TO GIVE IT A TRY.
I'M GOING TO WAIT A BIT WITH POSTING MY DECISION BECAUSE I WANT TO SEE IF JACK WILL EVER SIGN ON AND IF JAMES WILL FINALLY RESPOND TO MY PM. I ASKED HIM ABOUT HEARING HE PROMISED HIS VOTE TO PORSCHE. I'M WONDERING HOW TRUE THAT IS.

I FEEL LIKE I'LL LOSE ANDREW AS IT RELATES TO THE GAME, WHICH IS FINE... BUT THE NON-GAME RELATED ANDREW IS SOMEONE I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO LOSE. IT DEFINITELY SUCKS.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I FEEL SO BAD, I WANT TO CRY. I HATE MYSELF THIS WEEK.

[Jessie Kowalski]

ALRIGHT, SO I HAD SOME TIME TO COOL OFF. GET OVER ALL THE DRAMA IN MY MIND AND HEART AND JUST MOVE ON. I HAD TO NOMINATE ANDREW. I JUST HAD TO. AS UPSET AS HE MAY BE WITH ME, IT HAD TO BE DONE. JAMES JUST SHOWED ME A LITTLE BIT OF HIS CONVO WITH ANDREW AND IT JUST CEMENTED SOMETHING I HAD ALREADY KNOWN. PORSCHE WAS ANDREW'S REAL FINAL 2 PARTNER. I KNEW IT. NOT SHOCKING CONSIDERING HE WAS PLAYING THE GAME FOR HER. SO AS MUCH AS IT SUCKS HAVING TO NOMINATE SOMEONE I WAS SO CLOSE TO, IT DOES MAKE IT A LITTLE EASIER KNOWING HE'S BEEN LYING TO ME. HE CLAIMED I WAS HIS F2 AND BLAH BLAH BLAH. I DID TOO. I LIED, I OWN IT, BUT YOU CAN'T TELL SOMEONE WHO'S OFFERING IT TO YOU THAT YOU AREN'T INTERESTED IN GOING TO F2 WITH THEM. SO I MEAN, I WAS BACKED INTO A CORNER. THE REAL POINT IS THAT HE WENT OUT OF HIS WAY TO SAY HOW HE AND I ARE PLAYING THIS GAME TOGETHER AND THAT I'M HIS F2 PARTNER WHEN HE KNEW FULL WELL I WASN'T AND HE PRIOR COMMITMENTS. I MAY ACCEPT AN OFFER, BUT I WON'T MAKE ONE WITH SOMEONE WHEN I ALREADY HAVE ONE. THAT'S WHERE THE DIFFERENCE LIES.

SO, I'M NOT GOING TO BE HAPPY IF ANDREW ENDS UP EVICTED, BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I'LL KNOW THAT SOMEONE IMPORTANT AND INFLUENTIAL IN THIS GAME WILL HAVE BEEN EVICTED AND IN THAT REGARD, A SUCCESSFUL HOH REIGN. I TRULY HOPE JACK EVICTS PORSCHE. I'M COUNTING ON HIM LIKE CRAZY. PLEASE PULL THROUGH JACK-O-LANTERN. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

[Jessie Kowalski]

RANT COMING UP... PREPARE YOURSELF


I FIND IT SO RIDICULOUS HOW THESE PEOPLE CAN'T THINK LOGICALLY AND EVICT A THREAT LIKE PORSCHE. I MIGHT GET EVICTED NEXT WEEK, LOL.. WHICH DEFINITELY DOES SUCK, BUT I'M GOING TO LAUGH SO FUCKING HARD WHEN 2 OUT RACHEL, ELISSA AND JACK GET EFFED OVER BY HER. IT'S ABSOLUTELY MIND BOGGLING TO ME THAT JACK WOULD ACTUALLY KEEP HER.
AND THE FACT THAT JAMES WOULD EVEN CONSIDER KEEPING HER... LAUGH MY ASS OFF TBH. I HONESTLY WISH I WOULD HAVE NOMINATED HIM.
THIS WEEK, ALTHOUGH SOMEWHAT SUCCESSFUL IN A THREAT GOING HOME, I FEEL DEFEATED ONCE AGAIN. I BELIEVE PEOPLE ARE PLAYING THIS GAME FOR PORSCHE AND I CAN'T DO A DAMN THING ABOUT IT.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I HAD A LITTLE BIT OF TIME COOL OFF. I'M STILL UNHAPPY WITH THE RESULTS, BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, THIS WAS MY OWN DOING. DOM WOULD HAVE KEPT THE NOMS THE SAME IF I HAD REALLY PUSHED FOR IT. I THINK IT MAY HAVE BEEN A TERRIBLE MOVE ON MY PART, BUT I'M UNSURE TBH.

I'M WAITING ON ELISSA TO GET ONLINE. RACHEL LEFT ME AN OFFLINE MESSAGE SAYING THAT SHE WANTED TO MAKE A DEAL WITH ELISSA AND HAD TO THROW MY NAME INTO THE MIX TO HIDE HOW CLOSE WE ARE. I REALLY WANT TO SEE IF ELISSA WILL TELL ME. IN A WAY, THIS IS THE ULTIMATE TEST. IF SHE DOESN'T TELL ME, IT WILL SHOW ME THAT SHE ISN'T THE ALLY SHE CLAIMS TO BE. CAN YOU BLAME ME FOR BEING SUSPICIOUS? HER AND PORSCHE HAVE AN UNBREAKABLE BOND, APPARENTLY. THE REASON I HAVE TRUSTED HER IN THE PAST IS BECAUSE SHE IS THE ONLY PERSON I HAVE SAID SOMETHING TO THAT HAS NEVER GOTTEN BACK TO ANYONE ELSE. ALSO, I DON'T ACTUALLY KNOW PORSCHE OUTSIDE OF THIS GAME AND I AM COMPLETELY UNAWARE OF WHATEVER BOND THEY HAVE. TO ME, IT'S HEARSAY AND ALTHOUGH IT MAY BE CONSIDERED DUMB ON MY PART, I FEEL LIKE IT WEAKENS THINGS IN MY EYES FOR NOT HAVING WITNESSED IT. STILL, I'M NOT COMPLETELY BLINDED BECAUSE I AM FULLY AWARE THAT ELISSA COULD HAVE EVICTED PORSCHE THIS ROUND, BUT CHOSE NOT TO.

THIS HOH IS CRUCIAL. NOT ONLY FOR MY SAFETY, BUT FOR THE SAKE OF THIS GAME. OUT OF EVERYONE, I WANT DOMINIC TO WIN IT THE MOST. I TRUST HIM WITH THE POWER AND I FEEL LIKE HE WOULD NOMINATE PORSCHE VS RACHEL. I WOULD LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE IT IF NOMS WERE TO STAY THE SAME AND IM THE ONLY VOTE TO KEEP RACHEL LMAO. I MEAN, IT WOULD SUCK ON SOME LEVEL BECAUSE SHE IS AN ALLY OF MINE, BUT MAN... IT WOULD GIVE ME GREAT PLEASURE TO JUST SHOW HER JUST HOW RIGHT I WAS.
PLEASE WIN THIS DOMINIC.
JAMES WINNING IS THE SECOND BEST OPTION WITH ELISSA AS THIRD. THEN I GUESS RACHEL. I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT WANT TO SEE PORSCHE OR JACK IN POWER.

[Jessie Kowalski]

WOW. SPOKE TO ELISSA FOR A FEW MINUTES NOW AND SHE STILL HASNT MENTIONED THE FACT THAT RACHEL APPARENTLY THREW ME UNDER THE BUS. THAT'S NICE, SHE EVEN MENTIONED HOW APPARENTLY PORSCHE AND RACHEL ARE BOTH COMING AFTER DOM AND JAMES AND WHEN I MENTIONED REPLACEMENTS, SHE DIDNT ADMIT TO RACHEL SAYING IT WOULD BE ME. THANKS ELISSA.

[Jessie Kowalski]

THERE ISN'T MUCH TO SAY OTHER THAN THE FACT THAT OBVIOUSLY PORSCHE ISN'T GOING ANYWHERE FOR YET ANOTHER ROUND. APPARENTLY WHEN RACHEL WON HOH, JAMES AND DOM STARTED THROWING BOTH ELISSA AND I UNDER THE BUS. DOM LATER MESSAGED ME AND I THINK IT'S PRETTY OBVIOUS THAT WHATEVER HE DID SAY, IT WASN'T EVEN HALF AS BAD AS WHAT HE WAS SAYING ABOUT ELISSA. I TRULY BELIEVE THAT JAMES DEFINITELY TRIED TO GET ME NOMINATED. IDK HOW HE THINKS I'M A FLOATER LMAO. WHAT AN IDIOT. THAT'S THE LAST THING I AM. NOT MY FAULT RACHEL IS SOMEONE I'VE BEEN ALIGNED WITH SINCE LIKE WEEK 3 OR WHATEVER WEEK IT WAS. JAMES HAS NO FRKN CLUE WHAT HE'S TALKING ABOUT TBH. I HOPE HE LEAVES THIS ROUND. I FEEL LIKE IT WOULD STRENGTHEN MY CONNECTION WITH DOM AND I NEED AS MANY PEOPLE ON MY SIDE AS POSSIBLE. I ALSO FEEL LIKE EVEN IF I GET NOMINATE OPPOSITE OF HIM, HE'D GET EVICTED OVER ME, WHICH IS GOOD.

IT'S TOO BAD I CAN'T PLAY FOR HOH NEXT WEEK BECAUSE I'D HAVE LOVED TO WIN IT AND TRY FRANTICALLY TO MAKE ANOTHER MOVE LOL. MEH. WE'LL WORRY ABOUT THAT WHEN AND IF I GET THERE. RIGHT NOW, I GOTTA SURVIVE THE WEEK. RACHEL ALWAYS SEEMS TO HAVE ULTERIOR MOTIVES, ALTHOUGH EVERYTHING SHE HAS EVER SAID TO ME HAS ALWAYS COME TRUE, SO I APPRECIATE IT. EVEN THOUGH I'M CONSTANTLY QUESTIONING HER MOTIVES AND PARANOID WITH THE DECISIONS SHE'S GOING TO MAKE, IT ALWAYS ENDS UP EXACTLY WHAT SHE TELLS ME IT'S GOING TO BE... UNLESS IT'S A SECRET PLAN TO BACKDOOR MY ALLIES OF COURSE.... WHICH I GUESS COULD END UP BEING ME AT ONE POINT LOL.

YEAH. RACHEL AND PORSCHE NEED TO GO REALLY SOON. I CAN'T HANDLE IT ANYMORE. WE HAVE NO SHOT AT THIS GAME WITH THEM IN IT. SOMETHING NEEDS TO HAPPEN!!!

[Jessie Kowalski]

I THINK I DID PRETTY WELL ON THIS VETO, BUT YOU CAN NEVER KNOW WHEN PLAYING AGAINST THE LIKES OF PORSCHE, RACHEL AND DOMINIC. 5 MOVES SEEMS LIKE A GOOD SCORE, BUT YOU CAN NEVER BE SURE. I'D REALLY LOVE TO WIN IT SO THAT I HAVE SOME OPTIONS. PART OF ME DOESN'T WANT TO USE THE VETO BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY THERE IS A POSSIBILITY OF ELISSA GOING UP, BUT THEN PART OF ME WANTS TO USE IT TO 1. HIDE MY CLOSENESS TO ELISSA  2. PROVE MYSELF TO DOMINIC AND 3. MAKE A MOVE.

I REALLY JUST WANT THE VETO SO THAT I CAN GUARANTEE MYSELF SOME SAFETY AND THAT I HAVE OPTIONS AVAILABLE TO ME. PLEASE GIVE IT TO ME!

[Jessie Kowalski]

I'M ANNOYED WITH THE POV RESULTS. NOT BECAUSE I WANT JAMES GONE, BUT BECAUSE IT GIVES RACHEL EVEN MORE POWER. DOESN'T SHE HOLD ENOUGH OF IT AS IT IS? IT'S REALLY STARTING TO GET FRUSTRATING THAT I CAN'T WIN A COMPETITION TO SAVE MY LIFE. I THOUGHT I DID GOOD ON THIS POV, AND THERE YOU HAVE TWO PEOPLE WHO WERE ABLE TO BEAT ME. WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD?! LOL.


STEP 1: STAY OFF THE BLOCK
STEP 2: STRENGTHEN MY RELATIONSHIP WITH JAMES
STEP 3: IF ELISSA GOES UP, VOTE DOM OUT... BUT IF ANYONE ELSE IS NOMINATED, VOTE THEM OUT.
STEP 4: SIT, WAIT, HOPE AND PRAY THAT ELISSA OR JAMES WINS HOH NEXT ROUND.

[Jessie Kowalski]

DO I STILL NEED TO USE CAPS?!


DOMINIC ~EXPOSED ME. HE SAID THAT I WAS ONE OF HIS CLOSEST ALLIES. OOPS. I HOPE IT DOESN'T MAKE RACHEL OR ELISSA TRUST ME ANY LESS. I'M A BIT NERVOUS ABOUT THAT TBH.
THE VIDEO WAS SO SWEET THOUGH. I LOVED WHAT HE HAD TO SAY TO ME AND I APPRECIATE THOSE WORDS SO MUCH. I LOVE THAT HE THINKS SO HIGHLY OF ME <3 HE'S A GREAT GUY TOO AND I'M REALLY SAD HE LEFT THIS WEEK. UGH.

CAN'T WAIT FOR THE HOH. I REALLY HOPE ELISSA OR JAMES WIN IT. HELL... EVEN IF JACK WINS IT, IT COULD BE FINE. JUST PLEASEEEEE NOT PORSCHE

[Jessie Kowalski]

that means Jessie will be talking in caps on the board until we have 6 houseguests remaining.

Yay!!! This is so exciting lol. I can finally use normal sized letters and I don't look like I'm yelling at everyone all the time
Don't mean to be ~boring, but there isn't much to update at the moment. Elissa says she will attempt to go for 5-6 hours. TBH, that's not good enough. Porsche will give it her all and that definitely means longer than that. I guess my last hope is with James. Meh. I fully expect a Porsche win and to be nominated. I started this war I guess, so I gotta accept the consequences.

I'm just going to backtrack a little bit here. Dom's eviction was awful. He and I were super close and the fact that he ended up leaving was one of the worst moments in this game. I WISHHHHHH he had won that damn veto. As much as I like James, I don't trust him nearly as much and although Elissa is my F2, she is also not as good at competitions as Dom is. It would have been nice to have him by my side while I try and claw my way into the F2. I just have to keep working on my relationships and hopefully be more impossible to evict than Porsche.

[Jessie Kowalski]

I'd like to think that James winning HOH is good for me, but who the hell knows. Apparently he told Elissa he isn't guaranteeing anybody's safety, lol. So either that means he is most likely nominating her, or he legitimately doesn't want to tell anybody they are safe because he prob wants to gather some dirt.
Not sure who his target is, but I'm hoping it's Porsche. If that's the case, I shouldn't be on the block because I am basically the only guarantee vote he has for her to go. At the same time, I might be the only person who could survive next to her during eviction. Obviously, he doesn't need to know that and obviously I'm not 100% sure about that because who the hell knows who Elissa and Rachel's true loyalties are with.
So, I actually think James might go the route of Porsche vs Elissa. It's risky because it leaves Rachel off the block and in a position to win the veto and use it on Porsche in order to get rid of Elissa. I know how she thinks and I am almost 100% certain that she'd do it, unless she really does favour me to Porsche and doesn't want to risk me going up instead.
Another possibility is Porsche vs Rachel, which obviously I wouldn't dare suggest. I know that he and Rachel still have some sort of relationship and he has pitched to her a F3 of him, her and I. It's probably legit because the two of us can't even compete in HOH, so why make this F3 deal? Unless he wants to get her back for what she did to him and Dom... idk.

Fingers crossed that things work out for me this week.

step 1: stay off the block
step 2: watch Porsche get nominated
step 3: win veto
step 4: make deals.