Queen Jessie's words of wisdom

[Jessie Kowalski]

weird round.

Andrew Gordon (10:22:00 PM): Jessica DrummelsmithI want you to know I like Jessie, I want to mend the fence, but she is hesistant I can tell because the others in the alliance have turned their backs on her.

Andrew Gordon (10:22:06 PM): again only your eyes
Andrew Gordon (10:23:08 PM): Jessica DrummelsmithI don't know if she is going to go with that, apparently it was jack and them talking to her but she didn't reveal all the names.11:13 AMJessica DrummelsmithThe other thing she was thinkin for pure betrayl was putting up Jessie and Adria to "teach them a lesson"
jessie.kowalski (10:26:22 PM): i dont get what that means though
jessie.kowalski (10:26:27 PM): what is she talking about
jessie.kowalski (10:26:32 PM): about jack?
Andrew Gordon (10:26:48 PM): Idfk she rambles
Andrew Gordon (10:27:19 PM): I honestly think that shit was told to her via david idk
jessie.kowalski (10:27:55 PM): but i dont even understand it.
jessie.kowalski (10:27:58 PM): maybe im slow
jessie.kowalski (10:28:08 PM): first of all
jessie.kowalski (10:28:11 PM): adria?
jessie.kowalski (10:28:18 PM): and who is she talking about
jessie.kowalski (10:28:21 PM): when she said
jessie.kowalski (10:28:31 PM): "she was thinkin for pure betrayl "
Andrew Gordon (10:28:37 PM): Rachel noming you and adria
jessie.kowalski (10:28:42 PM): and dont worry, im not repeating anything to anyone
jessie.kowalski (10:28:49 PM): what did adria do?
jessie.kowalski (10:29:33 PM): i feel so out of the loop
Andrew Gordon (10:30:04 PM): Idk apparently alogning with them
jessie.kowalski (10:30:17 PM): im so excited because ive been so confused for so long
jessie.kowalski (10:30:28 PM): you're like lifting the fog
Andrew Gordon (10:30:59 PM): Im just being a bad boy
jessie.kowalski (10:31:28 PM): well u know im not gonna repeat this to anyone so have no fear!



i'm still super confused though. I don't know what's going on at all and I wish Andrew would just trust me enough to tell me. I'm even holding back with Shane, JIC. I'm so worried of info spilling and screwing me over. As much as I love Rachel, part of me thinks she could be planning to backdoor me. I hope she wouldn't because we do seem to have good conversations, but I think she has great conversations with everyone lol. Also, if they all want me gone, who's to stop her. Apparently Adria did something too, which is weird. I don't want to say anything because I do not want to be seen as someone with a big mouth. If people see that whatever they tell me never gets around, they will start giving me more information.

[Jessie Kowalski]

PROOF

Andrew Gordon (11:18:29 PM): Then you'll have 4 melons?
jessie.kowalski (11:19:16 PM): yes
jessie.kowalski (11:19:21 PM): thats fine with me

[Jessie Kowalski]

Andrew Gordon (11:25:47 PM): You said that's fine lol not me
jessie.kowalski (11:26:00 PM): omg
jessie.kowalski (11:26:10 PM): im
jessie.kowalski (11:26:11 PM): laughing
jessie.kowalski (11:26:13 PM): so
jessie.kowalski (11:26:14 PM): much
jessie.kowalski (11:26:15 PM): right
jessie.kowalski (11:26:16 PM): now
jessie.kowalski (11:26:29 PM): wow

[Jessie Kowalski]

Ugh. Freakn PORSCHE got picked to play? So annoying. She's safe already anyway.
I don't even know who I want to see win since I don't trust anyone. I just hope it's not Adria because I feel like she might save jack.

[Jessie Kowalski]

Ian (5:11:05 PM): Hey Girl Hey
jessie.kowalski (5:11:55 PM): hey, whats up?



so fake.

[Jessie Kowalski]

According to Andrew, I am not going to be the replacement nominee, which makes me think someone else is the target. Shane told me there was something going on as it relates to Adria, so I guess it could end up being her.
Andrew didn't give me any details, but he always seems like he knows his shit. I don't like to be a pest, which is why I don't bother him to give me details about things, but I hope he just keeps trusting me enough to reveal things.
We talk so often and I feel like I portray myself as someone who needs him and I feel like this will make him want me around.
Although I feel like I should be able to trust Rachel to keep me safe, I'm not convinced. I guess I just see myself as someone who people really want out.

Porsche is a huge threat to win this game because she 1. a great social player and 2. an amazing competitor. I feel like the best way to get her out is through a backdoor, but at the same time, I'd only consider it if I truly felt she'd be the one evicted 100%. Otherwise, I'd just love to see David or Ian leave. I'm salivating at the thought <3

[Jessie Kowalski]

I see both Ian and David online and the thought of messaging either of them just really nauseates me.
Then I have my "fake" conversations with Elissa. My ongoing "nothing" conversations with Andrew and basically no conversations with anybody else. This is torture I want to see who replacement is and then move on from there. So much in between.

[Jessie Kowalski]

Rachel is trying to figure out who replacement is and she told me she was thinking of Adria. When Rachel told her about it, Adria started freaking out, which made me think that Rachel was possibly hoping I'd pawn myself off. um, no. Not happening sister! I think it's still a go with Adria, but I wouldn't be surprised if it turned out being me. I'm not throwing myself down though. If you nominate me, better hope I get evicted [Which I probably will lol].
She wants Shane gone though. I told her she has my vote, but she doesn't. I'm not voting him out. Either way, I don't think he has the votes. I just don't want to be THAT person.
I'd most likely blame my vote on someone else though. I don't want Rachel to think I'm lying to her because I need her in this game like crazy! She is somewhat on my side and she's an important person in this series. She can help me out A LOT. And as long as she keeps feeding me information that doesn't get back to her, I should be seen as trustworthy enough.
As it relates to Shane. He has my vote no matter what. The only thing I have to tell him to do is try and keep my name out of his mouth. As soon as I'm seen as a sure thing, people will either want him gone or just see us as a pair. Neither are good for our games.
God I hope I'm not the replacement and that Shane stays. PLEASE.

[Jessie Kowalski]

Gonna give a good update later tonight, but just wanted to say quickly....
I love that Adria outed the alliance LMAO and I love that she specifically said Porsche, rachel, david or Ian will win. Hopefully making me out to be on the outs. This should position me right in the middle.

[Brian Hart]

Good luck Jessie girl!

[Jessie Kowalski]

Thank you Brian

[Jessie Kowalski]

As promised, here is my confessional.

Rachel kept me safe! After she had nominated Adria, she told me she wouldn't risk me because she didn't trust that the others would keep me safe. She also told me that I am expendable to everyone in the alliance, so I'm even happier that I remained off the block. As much as I'm super grateful that she kept me safe this week, I still feel like she's doing a little bit of manipulating. I don't necessarily mind because the people she is counting on me going after are the people I wanted to go after anyway. Besides for that, the most important thing here is that I am aware of her gameplay and that I won't let her play mind tricks on me. Love her though and as long as I don't say anything negative about her to anyone, everything should be good  between us. I also believe that she and Andrew are tight, so I pay even closer attention when it comes to talking about either of them and talking to them separately.
I did tell Shane that Rachel's main target was him. I wanted him to hear it from me and I know that he never would have told anyone anyway. I feel like I can trust him with my life in this game and although I hold back with people like Andrew, Dominic and Rachel on some level, I feel like I can be almost completely honest with Shane. The only thing I haven't told him was that I have a connection with Rachel. He knows everything else though. Telling him that he was target was with the information I had at the time. I kind of do think there was a backdoor plan all along, but I'll get to that a little later.

So let's backtrack a little bit here. I went to work expecting there to be some sort of drama as it relates to Shane vs. Adria, but wasn't prepared for the PM I received from Ian.

Hi Jessie,

So awkward but I feel like we broke up. I know after that stupid alliance stuff, we both promised we wanted to make it right, but feel like we have that awkward ball between us where we either just dont catch each other online or one of us has to leave in the middle of a conversation. I miss the girl I had that flow with

Hopefully after this week we can all come together again. The question at hand is who do you want to go this week. Shane or Adria.

Of course to this I had to think of a good answer. I had to pretend like I was obviously still with the alliance and that the thought of evicting Adria hadn't even crossed my mind

 

I told Ian I promised my vote to Adria

Hey Ian, I know what you mean. I think it's just been super awkward not being quite so sure how truly upset or angry people have been with me. It's hard when I feel like I know I was wrong, but can't prove myself.

For the vote, I promised my vote to Adria last night and I thought that was the obvious vote, no?

Which he then responded with

Obviously Im not about to turn on the group. You need to know there are a lot of rumors still of another alliance. I don't pay much mind to them, cause I know I was put in a rumored alliance once before already, and I dont want to do that to anyone.

You don't have to worry about me and I hope you believe me. I know you have a friend in Andrew he talks highly of you If Rachel was holding anything against you you would be on the block this week so I think she is cool too, and I know Porsche is too. I don't really know at this point where David stands after that hole situation, he is another I have failed to get to talk to a lot this week.

I asked bout the vote cause I was worried people might be considering sending Adria home, and I believe she went on the block as truely the pawn, who would have the votes to stay. Didn't want to vote until I heard from you, and the others in the alliance.

<3 Ian

Rumors of alliances, talk about David, my relationship with Andrew. Good God Ian, do you ever know when to shut up? He is awful and ridiculously fake.
Before I had a chance to respond, he had sent me yet another PM

How quickly things change in 50 minutes lol. I don't know if you will get this, I see you online now, but I have changed my mind, If people thought you were a snake they are sadly mistaken because I was just shown proof that Adria leaked the alliance DAY 2.

That means my loyalty to her is being flushed down the toilet and I am sending her home tonight. Wel lat least I am voting for her. As others are finding out this info they are more inclined to send her home over Shane.

It might be in your favor to do the same, cause if people are linking you and ADria together as "Traitors" for lack of a better word with her gone we might be able to pull this game back in and work it. I odn't wnat ot lose my sweetheart of the game. I also don't like being played, and Adria has been playing in the middle. She is the reason the war started. She told Shane all about the alliance who told James and together the counter alliance was made. You and I would not be at this awkward talking stage if it wasn't for her big mouth.

Let me know what you think

Something tells me they knew about Adria for a long time. Andrew showed me snippets of conversations between Ian and them. Ian said something about Rachel nominating Adria and I for "betraying" the alliance. Obviously they knew all along and I'm not stupid enough to think this was all just "oh so random". For sure there was a backdoor plan all along and if I felt confident in bringing up what Andrew showed me, I'd expose it all. For now, I'll accept their fake answers, but I'm fully aware someone is playing everyone. Shane still fully trusts Andrew, but I have my doubts. The only thing I'm sure about as it relates to Andrew is that he likes me and for that reason, I'm not throwing him to the wolves. He may have been the leak and he may have made my game way more difficult than it needed to be, but we get along and that's important. Not to mention, he is the holder of the Diamond Power of Veto, which is extremely useful when on his side.

When Adria exposed the alliance, at first I didn't care at all, but then I remembered that I never leaked it to Andrew or Dominic; two people I was counting on in this game. When they got online, we discussed it and neither seemed to be upset. Andrew said he knew about it for a while, which I had suspected. I definitely believe him that he isn't upset and I'm pretty sure he knows that I've been honest with my intentions in this game. We're on the same page and what to see the same things happen in the future.
When I spoke to Dominic, he also seemed okay with it and he said he heard rumors about the alliance. I do trust that he isn't upset with me, but I kind of get the feeling he might just be pushing it aside for right now and then eventually remember it when it benefits him. I hope I'm just being paranoid though.

I feel like I still need to do some damage control though. David and I haven't spoken in a really long time and every time I try talking to Ian on aim, he doesn't answer. TBH, I'm usually super excited when that happens because I hate talking to him, but at the same time, I feel like I should be rebuilding my relationships in this game.

I want this HOH so badlyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! But I also want the twist to be over. I don't want my enemies to be safe from eviction. I'm so over them. I want to nominate them and pull them off their high horses. I'm ready to make a damn move!

Something else I wanted to bring up was the eviction vote counts

There have been some hinky votes since the very beginning. This gif ^ is basically what I'm trying to avoid. Those who are doing it are looking for a reaction and tbh, IDGAF who wants to make things ~interesting by voting differently. People have their reasons and good for them. The best thing that came out of this is that people actually believe I voted to evict Shane. That's hilarious. I don't think anyone knows how close he and I are, even after everything went down. On top it, because I had promised my vote to Adria, maybe I look trustworthy again, lol. I have no problem lying in this game and I am definitely going to take advantage of the fact that people think I voted against Shane.


I really want HOH. People have so much dirt on me because Rachel, Andrew, Shane and Dominic all know I'm coming after David and Ian. This could be used against me, which will screw me over big time. Give me the power Big Brother!!!

[Jessie Kowalski]

Elissa and I had a chance to talk. In our conversation, we discussed not coming after each other and that we'd like to work together. We discussed what people have said. That she and Porsche are close and about me and that horrid alliance.
I guess I just work better with one on one relationships. oops.
Well anyway, she seems cool and she even revealed that David thinks I'm some person from gsurvivor. IDK. It ain't me. The funny thing is, Rachel told me this some time last week, but I didn't admit to it obviously. She also told me that David is after Andrew's DPOV, which I knew already as well. She isn't giving me anything I don't already know, but it seems to me that the little bit of information people are giving me is their way of trying to take me under their wings.
I so fear winning HOH with only a shitty select few people to nominate. If I win it, I hope the twist is over, otherwise I'd be forced to nominate Jack and an ally o.O Nothing would suck more, except David or Ian winning and nominating me lol. oops.

[Jessie Kowalski]

nauseous. physically nauseous. lol

[Jessie Kowalski]

Ian sent a world wide PM to all of us to see and reply to.

Does he really expect people to throw names out there? I honestly don't know what to tell him. I have better relationships with every single other person in this game other than David so it would be so completely fake. Plus, I don't trust him with the smallest of information so what the hell am I supposed to say? I wish Rachel were online. She is my link to these bozos and probably the only person in there looking out for me at all! My only hope this week is Andrew <3 I hope he takes the opportunity to use his DPOV on David. Part of me hopes he does get nominated because then he'd be forced to use it and we can get David the hell out of here... and you know what that would mean for my game?! Bliss. David, Ian and Porsche are my biggest obstacles right now and Dominic and Rachel will be an issue later down the road. If one of my biggest targets leave this week, it will be the most exciting game move to date.