Elissa, please go to the Diary Room

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

Elissa Slater 10:48 am

well if noms, by the grace of god, stay the same
i really really really don't think
booting jessie
is the right move

Porsche Briggs 10:48 am
If Jessie stays up they wont stay anyways
Jessie was talking about me as in being a threat so I don't know if I could keep her
But doesnt matter she won't be up after po anyways
POV
or DPOV rather

Elissa Slater 10:49 am
i just feel like she's the type of person, that if you help her out then she's loyal

Porsche Briggs 10:50 am
David knows her
Shes part of the shadow group
:-\

Elissa Slater 10:50 am
i don't get what that has to do with anything lol

Porsche Briggs 10:50 am
Also shes in an alliance w Shane and Dom
which does have something to do with things :-p
just dont tell anyone that yet

Elissa Slater 10:51 am
yeah i mean
obviously i'm going to see how the week plays out

Porsche Briggs 10:51 am
They started al alliance beginning of this week

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Porsche must think I'm an actual idiot. There's no fucking way she'd know that if that were the case. I've seen her play, and I know that she floats lies to people to get them to do certain things, or think certain ways. Honestly, at this point, I'd rather be fourth in an alliance with Jessie, Shane and Dominic, than get second to Porsche. I'm not having any fun with David, because every conversation is, "Person X is actually Person Y from this series, and they did A, B, and C there, so we need to get them out ASAP." Ian is conniving as fuck, and he plots behind everyone's back. No way he's not doing it to me. I really like Rachel, but I know that she's a comp whore and will need to be dealt with eventually.

I just want to send a message to them. I would love for nominations to somehow stay the same. Andrew, Shane, Dominic and myself could keep Jessie. That would only tie it, but I have a nifty little extra vote that I'd use to make it 5-4. Rachel/David/Porsche/Jun would be shocked, and it would be phenomenal. Then we'd still have Andrew's DPOV to help us out. Except the rest of the house would probably hate me, but oh well. I don't even care at this point. I just want to play my own game, not someone else's. As the late and great Whitney Houston once said:

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadow.

[Chenbot]

I love when people forget about prizes. The shock value :')

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

Please please please please please please please let Jessie or Porsche win the veto. Porsche basically assumes that Andrew is going to DPOV Jessie anyway, so therefore she wants to use the veto and take Jessie off herself, and build up that rapport. Obviously Jessie would take herself down.

The worst case scenario is David winning the veto, because he's likely to leave nominations the same. Without Andrew being able to backdoor David, he may not use the DPOV at all. I guess that'd let me execute my plan to boot Jack this week, but I'd rather see something bigger happen. This person could be the first member of the jury, so it's time to start knocking down big threats. Personally, I'd rather have 9th place start the jury; I guess I'm a traditionalist.

Ugh, this veto is stressful. I really just don't want David to win it. Sparks will fly this week if he doesn't.

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

^basically how I feel about cheating^
and derogatory comments too.


I am kind of mad at myself, because I knew this was kind of going on. David offered to help me out in the Knockout HOH. I denied his request, but I should've know he was probably cheating with others. It's just disappointing, and really makes me want to ditch the alliance. It's no fun to win playing that way, and I already feel as if I've kind of cheated, just because I've been reaping the benefits of them cheating by being their friend. It's not fair to Jack/Shane/Jessie - the people who have been nominated a lot, and even more unfair to people like Adria and James, who might have been eliminated because of it.

Now, someone obviously gave David the answers. Cheating is not a one-way street. I hate to bring past games into this, but I would have to assume Ian was the one feeding David the answers. While I've seen Ian cheat in other games and get caught, I've never seen/heard of Jack doing anything like that. Plus, why would Jack help someone else win? It's not a guarantee that anyone will veto you unless you're a super obvious and close alliance, so Jack would probably try and win for himself. 

I have been talking to Porsche this morning, and it's seeming like she's going to veto Jessie. Yay! It seems like Dominic is going to be going up as a replacement nominee. I'll need to talk to Jessie and Shane and see what they want to do, but Jack could possibly be going home this week? I don't know. I just feel like Dominic will be more loyal to me in the long run if I work to save him this week. At the same time, there is a huge spotlight on David and Ian, and I don't know if flipping the house is the best idea for my game. If Dominic goes this week, and Ian and David are the next two evicted people, then I am in the final 8. Big Brother is never that easy, but a girl can dream! 

Anyway, I will need to talk around and see what everyone's doing this week before I can make some sort of game plan. I can't really influence anyone to do anything, so I'll just have to play with the cards I'm dealt. 

<3

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

Wow, last week took quite a turn! I'll have to update y'all. So basically, I was in class when things were going crazy, and Ian tried to frame David into hacking her AIM. In order to further validate her story, Ian nominated David as a replacement nominee. David did the right thing, and walked from the game. Byeeeee.

Onto the final 10 - or so I thought. Then Julie drops a bombshell and tells us someone is going to be returning. So much for that! Kicking out Ian and David was supposed to take me to the final 8, but with Dom staying, and James coming back, it'll likely be the final 10 once they're gone. However, James did manage to talk to me for a bit.

He told me he really genuinely wants to work with me. I don't know if I believe it or not. On one hand, he seemed really sincere and was putting a lot of effort into the conversation. On the other hand, he could just be trying hard with everyone. I know James is a slimy bastard - you can't make it as far as he did, three times, otherwise. At the same time, if he truly is on my side, well then, great! That fits right in with my game play.

I haven't been winning comps, and it's fantastic. It puts me right where I want to be. I'm good socially, I have allies, and I try hard enough in comps so it doesn't look like I'm throwing. And I'm not really; I kind of suck. But also, I don't need to win! So why would I? I feel like I'm in a great spot in the house, and with the way things are going I'll continue to coast on through.

One thing that's come of the past week are alliances. In basically the same night, I formed a final 3 alliance with Jessie and Andrew. It may have come out of left field, but I feel like I need endgame alliances with people I can beat. I am trying to win this game after all, and while that's thinking far ahead, if I'm in the final 4 with Shane, Porsche and Rachel, I cannot win. In addition to that final 3 alliance, there was a final 6 alliance made between Porsche, Rachel, Shane, Andrew, Jessie and myself. I'm so excited for this alliance because we are awesomeeeeee. I also think I'm right in the center of it, which is great. I'm not the weakest nor the strongest player, and I like that position. I am hoping to ride it out as much as possible.

With Rachel as HOH, I'm not really sure what she's going to do. I am talking to her right now and she's really confused on what to do for nominations. I'm trying to be really supported so I don't go up, but I know that I could as a pawn. I don't think I have much chance of leaving this week, but, I'd rather not be up there. I'm no Spencer!

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Rankings :.

1. Porsche
2. Jessie
3. Andrew
4. Shane
5. Rachel
6. James
7. Jack
8. Dominic
9. Jun

10. Ian

{I still don't know if I can put Andrew/Jessie above Porsche. I probably could put Jessie up there. I talk to her basically daily and I think she's fantastic. Andrew and I don't talk nearly as much and our conversations don't go very many places. I am curious how he really feels about the final 3.}

Ally

Potential Ally

Neutral

Enemy

Target until dead

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

Sooo right before nominations went up, there was a meeting between the sexy six. It was fairly obvious that Rachel was digging for a pawn; however, none of us offered to go up. She messaged me privately, seeming almost offended that no one wanted to go up but I cut the BS right away. I asked her point blank if she'd go up for one of us, and she said she wouldn't. She then said that she understood why none of us wanted to go up, it just would've been nice if we did. Oh well, I don't have much sympathy.

She was the one who decided not to backdoor Ian. This is her HOH week, and she decided that she didn't want to put up Ian as an initial nominee. I told her that I'd have supported her fully if she put up Ian in the first place, but it's her call. I dunno why she wouldn't put up Jun - but it's whatever.

With Ian not playing in the veto, it's almost inevitable he'll be evicted this week. I don't think anyone's going to do anything to change that, and I don't mind. He hasn't talked to anyone since the incident and I have a feeling he knows he's toast.

I am hoping, also, that he's not the first juror. I have a feeling that I'm not in danger next week, so I'd like for the jury to start at final 9. It would just feel more intimate that way, I suppose. However, with the timing of the bring-back twist, it just kind of feels like the jury is going to start at 11. I don't like bigger juries, so this it kinda stinks that's what we're likely getting. But I digress.

The other day, I had a conversation with Andrew about what he wants to do as a long term game plan. He gave me a very standard answer, saying he wants our 6 to get down to the final 6, then have Jessie, him and myself take out the remaining 3. I dunno about him, but I don't think I can beat Rachel in comps. I was really testing the water to see if he would DPOV her when the time is right, but I don't think he will. I talked to Jessie about his answer, and she said she wants to pit Rachel and Porsche against each other at the final 6. It's a better strategy than what Andrew had, but Rachel and Porsche are close so I'm not sure it's going to work. Of course, timing is everything and Rachel has to know that Porsche would take me to the end over her... right?

I know that's so far away, but I'm tired of being patient. I know playing too hard too early is only going to shoot myself in the foot, so I just need to be patient. It just is getting kind of boring though. Especially sitting out of all of these vetoes! I'm kind of hoping for a Dominic/James HOH to be honest, because then at least the game would be shook up.

[Chenbot]

Aww, I didn't notice that. You are the only one to not have played in a veto. Maybe next week?

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

It's disgustingly obvious how clear it is that this house is run by Porsche. Granted, there have only been 3 different HOHs in the entire game, but she's been in both Ian's and Rachel's ears both times they have been HOH. And now, I just think it's really gone too far.

I cannot believe Rachel and Porsche are keeping a cheater in the game and taking out Shane, a member of our alliance. Apparently that's what's happening now. Rachel said she "felt around" and gathered this was the best move, but I see right through that bull shit. Andrew, Jessie, Shane and myself wouldn't have said Shane. Ian would've suggested James first, Jun's never around, and I think Jack wanted Ian out? Obviously Dominic/James wouldn't say to put Shane up, either. It's obvious this move was concocted by Rachel and Porsche.

Well, this just in... Porsche's telling me she hasn't really talked to Rachel? I dunno whose plan this is but it SUCKS. Anyway, I'm curious to see what Porsche has to say about it. Jk she totally knew about this all along and is trying to bullshit me into thinking it's a good idea for myself. I know how she plays, and she's a brilliant player, but I see right through it.

I've been talking to Rachel some more and I just tried to give her the indication that I support whatever she does (which I do) but I think it'd be smarter for her to evict Dominic (which I also do.) While I do feel close to Shane, it's not him going that really bothers me. It's like, when is going to be the next time we cut someone before we're supposed to? It could be Andrew or Jessie, and I can't have that. Ugh, it just worries me I guess. Though, I do feel slightly protected by Andrew's DPOV which would bring me to the final 7.

Even if Shane goes out this week, I feel like I have really good relationships with everyone but Jun. I just reconnected with Ian, and he told me he wouldn't nominate me and I told him I reciprocate that feeling. Little does everyone know I'm trying to throw all the HOHs. Sorry! I'm just in too good of a spot to be winning Head of Household and be making enemies. The game's all about timing, and it's not my time.

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

Ugh I am having such an internal conflict over this vote. U G H. Like on one hand, I promised Rachel that I would vote out Shane, but on the other hand, I know that keeping Shane is better for my game. Or at least, Shane is better for me than Dominic.

Gah, I feel like this is stepping out of that pretty UTR spot that I was in so nicely. But I have to do what's best for me. If Dominic goes, then it's going to be Ian and Rachel vs. Shane and James. It'll be glorious and I'll love every second of it.

So now I'm talking to Porsche and it's weird. She's basically asking me for all the advice on this vote. I can see what she's doing; she doesn't want to take responsibility for this move. I think she sees that Dominic leaving is better for her game as well.

Right now, I am working on getting Andrew and Porsche on the same page, because both are on the fence. Rachel's going to be pissed but there was very little backing for evicting Shane and she should have seen it. Talking to Shane and Porsche, this possibility is becoming a reality more and more. I'll update later too.

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

Shane!!!!! ILYSM. I cannot believe I evicted you. It kills me </3

I'm really pretty sure that all of America hates me right now. I'm like the Jessie that didn't flip. But ugh!!! That was a tough as hell decision, and it's not like there was overwhelming support to keep Shane. A lot of people were on the fence, and none of them are as close to Porsche and Rachel as I am. As much as I wanted to make the move to be an independent figure, and to play the game for myself, it goes against how I really want to play this game.

The other day, I was talking to one of my friends Justin, who plays ORGs, about ORGs. He basically told me that I am a straight up, stereotypical, mid-jury boot. And it's so true. I get mid-jury so much, because people want to make a move against a power player, and it's always me. So why the fuck am I going to rise as a power player in the final 11? That sounds dumb! Justin suggested that I change up my strategy, and I realize that I do better when I'm really loyal to really strong people. Basically, I do better when I ride coattails. However, I'm trying to couple this coattail riding with a really good social game. I don't know where Jun stands, but I really really don't think anyone else would nominate me at this point.

I am going to send a PM to Jun after the eviction results are up, and just ask her how things are going/ what her thoughts are. I feel like she's not on a lot so there has to be someone else she's not connecting with. If I extend that small little PM, it could mean a world of difference. As for who I want to see win HOH...

James told me that if he wins HOH, he's going to shake up the game. This would be kind of fantastic, but kind of terrifying. There are only so many power players that can leave in a row. Right now, I am kind of MORM3 right now, but Jun is totally INV2 and that's a problem. She needs to go soon, before she floats to the end of the game. That's going to be problematic for sure. I don't want Porsche/Rachel picking her up as their puppy dog - they don't need another! Rachel has Ian, Porsche has Andrew, and yeah, they don't need any more minions.

Speaking of Ian! After I realized that he wasn't the target this week, I quickly approached him and we made up almost instantly. I told him I was really busy with midterms, and he said he was busy with traveling so it's okay. Phew! Now that he's more or less back in the game, he could be HOH any time soon. He told me that if he wins HOH I am in no danger of going up, which is great! I told him the same goes for him but of course I'm throwing all the HOHs. Anyway, I'm glad to have refortified that bond while he's going to be in the game. Unfortunately, I still know him to be a cheater and I think he needs to be evicted soon because of it. Also unfortunately, other people are dropping that mindset, so I have to as well.

Ultimately, I think my position in the house is still strong. People are seeing Porsche and Rachel as the strongest players, with Ian as their third. James and Dominic are going to be the main targets of the Ian and Porsche, while I have Rachel currently focused on the floaters like Jun and Jack. I feel like Jessie and I are sitting pretty after that eviction, despite its confusion.

I will do a house ranking after the eviction tomorrow. I'm pretty sure that Shane is leaving butttt I guess you never know! Awk if he stays.

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Rankings :.

1. Jessie
2. Porsche
3. Andrew
4. James
5. Jack
6. Rachel
7. Ian
8. Dominic
9. Jun

Ally

Ally that I may flip on

Neutral

Targeting

Target until dead

note: the key has changed

So I changed up my key a little bit because I think it's more fitting of the shape that the game is taking. There aren't really potential allies at this point... the alliances are sort of done. Things will shift as they will, but I just don't see the potential ally category as necessary anymore. I definitely am now thinking of my allies in terms of, "who's a top ally, and who do I want to turn on soon?"

There are a few people that need to go sooner rather than later. It would be ideal for me if Jun and Ian were the next two people to leave the game. I don't know how hard I can push this agenda without being noticed, but it'd be fantastic. This would still leave the Rachel and Porsche duo in the house that everyone wants out, as well as James and Dominic. I need to remove a number from Rachel and Porsche, so that's where Ian comes in. He's loyal to them to a fault, and he's good at comps. In order for me to stay in good standing in their alliance, they need to not have options besides me. That means Ian's gotta go soon.

I also want to take a floater out of the game. I don't necessarily want to be considered a floater, though I acknowledge I'm pretty much playing that way. I want her UTR spot in the house. Right now, I don't think people are looking at me as a major threat. Sit me next to Jun, however, and I might as well be Rachel. That wouldn't be good for me at all. Getting Jun out of the house is key, to lessen my target even more.

Last night, I had a good conversation with Rachel and I kind of tugged on her heartstrings. I know that she's a ruthless player, but I really think she is loyal to me in this game. I definitely plan on using that against her down the road. She gave me her full support to take out Jun if I win HOH, however, I think that would be a poor move for me. This round, people are looking to make a game-changing move. I want Ian gone this round because of that, though it may need to be Rachel. I can't lose Porsche yet. I haven't figured out how or if I'm going to turn on her, but I can't lose her. 

Turning on Porsche is one thing I haven't come to terms with yet, and I don't know if I ever will.

[Elissa Slater]

me at this comp

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

Sooooo I definitely lost that HOH, but it's okay! I'm glad I hadn't quoted all the competitions yet, like I had wanted to, because then I might have felt obligated to win. I really don't want HOH right now, given that there are warring sides of the house and I'm in the middle of all of it.

There will be other people who haven't saved stuff yet, so hopefully this doesn't come across as undeserving down the line. Oh well, I can't worry about that right now.

I'm really hoping that James wins this HOH. I don't want Ian to be on jury and if Porsche wins, he likely will be. James taking out Ian would be best case-scenario for me this week, and then next week I'll put a hard press on getting Jun out of the house. That would put me in such a good position at the final 8, I feel. Especially with Andrew's DPOV coming out any time now.

I really don't know what's going to happen, but I've been very social lately and I can tell I'm on a good page with everyone. Super excited to see how this game unfolds, and how I'll stay out of the war zone.

<3

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

me, to Porsche, when she won HOH

So I'm so glad that I'm safe for the week, because there's just no way Porshce or Andrew are putting me up. Yay for essentially making jury!! Of course, Porsche has been very indecisive about her nominations. I think she truly has no idea what she's going to do. I just hope it's not me - even as a pawn. She's been very open with me so far so I think it's safe to say I'm good.

As for something else that's happened this week.... Pandora's Box!!! Apparently Rachel, Ian and Porsche have all gotten it before, but it's back. I'm super excited about this because it sounds like an elimination competition. No, I haven't been the best at competitions thus far, but I think that I'm good enough to stay alive. Supposedly the person who wins gets some kind of power, so I'll certainly be going for that. Porsche, just a bit ago, told me she opened Pandora's box, which is something I was heavily pushing her to do. I really couldn't be happier with this decision because it brings me one step closer to the end. Hopefully it'll knock out Dominic or Jun.

I talked the other night with Andrew and he seems very keen on making a move with his DPOV. Yay! He wants to cut a big threat at the final 8, and I want it to be Rachel. Unfortunately, that means she can't win any competitions that week. I'll have to try my best to win veto, but I really don't want to be HOH. Maybe James can win it, though he'd likely put up Rachel anyway. I dunno. This is just too much to think about right now! I have all these plans but no idea how to execute them. I just need to see what happens in Pandora's box, and get ready to OWN IT.

[Elissa Slater]

.: Elissa's Thoughts :.

I can't believe I really haven't written in here in over a week. I guess I've been really busy but still, no excuse! Of course, don't mistake the lack of confessing for anything else... I've been very involved in the game.

Anyway, after Pandora's box was opened I didn't do anything right away. I talked to people to see where their heads were at, but in a survivor week I didn't want to play my cards too early. I knew this was a great opportunity to get Ian out, and I had to take it. This makes me way more valuable to Rachel and Porsche now that he's gone. Jack won the veto, so I started talking to people and put my plan in motion. Rachel was eager to vote out Ian, because I think she was paranoid it'd be her otherwise. Porsche wasn't happy about the vote, but tried to act like she was fine with it. I assume she didn't want it to happen, but just cut her losses and let him go.

In this coming week, all eyes are on Andrew it seems. A lot of people are not happy with him right now, and they want the DPOV gone. It's kind of funny that people are being so vocal about it because Andrew holds all the power. I'm not worried at all since Andrew wouldn't dare touch me with that thing.

I feel like almost anyone who wins the HOH is going to put up Andrew. I wouldn't so maybe it would be a good week to win? Next week, Andrew would be using his DPOV for sure so I would be in a good spot. I just don't know if I should win yet. My gut is telling me not to win HOH. I don't have any enemies right now, and only 2 people in the game right now have been HOH. Either Rachel will get it again, or someone new will get it. The only way I'd feel like I'm in trouble is if Jun gets it, but even then I think I have the votes.

Anyway, I'm going to see what the competition is and go from there. I still want Jun to go next, but I don't think it will happen unless I win HOH. Then, it's definitely not happening at the final 8. So I guess that means Jun is gonna be in the final 7? IDEK. Seems like it's a good week to get her out. The house is all aligned, yet all against each other, so taking out the biggest wildcard would help my game immensely.

I just don't know yet, though. I need to sleep on it. I still feel like I'm in a good spot in the house.