Diary Room #1

[Jean Jordan]

Here we are - the Big Brother Recycled 14 house! Aaaaaaahhhhh! I can not believe that I am here and playing this game. To be selected over other people who wanted to be in the game is just a dream come true. I am grateful for the opportunity and ready to enjoy the experience. I just hope it isn't short lived. =P But I will keep a chipper demeanor and hope for the best during my stay! After all that is all I can do!

It was no surprise to me when half the cast ended up being veterans of the game. These are people who have won - these are people who have played so many times before! =O I was both excited and nervous at the exact time. I know that my work will be cut out for me when I go head to head with these houseguests. I just hope that they don't see me as expendable or threatening to their own individual games.

My goal is to be friendly and loving and to just vibe well with everyone in the house. I do not want to be an early boot. I think I will have to turn on my charm and try to show these people that I am a loving and caring person and maybe that will be enough for them to want to keep me around for a little while and go for larger targets or people who don't really show that they want to be here and play.

[Jean Jordan]

While I was doing the HOH I realized... "You haven't spoken to 6 people!" Oh no! There are 9 people I have spoken to and gotten a feel for but there are 6 people who I just haven't had a chance to talk to or they haven't responded to my messages! Those people are Andrew, Dominic, Ian, James, Jessie, and McCrae. It will be important that I try and make nice with them and converse with them!

Out of all the returnees I really like Shane and Jun the most! Both of them are so very sweet to me and I hope they are genuine when they tell me they feel the same. Jun and I have a bond... we're both Asian women with a passion for Big Brother! Shane is just a humble and sweet person and I was happy to see him win last season. He deserved it! I would love to work with Jun and/or him while I am here!

James is somebody who frightens me but also does not appear to be a very friendly person. His posts on the board are unbecoming and he didn't give me a good first impression so I ranked him last. Maybe he is nice when talking 1 on 1, but from first glance I really don't care for him! Elissa and I both agreed that James has played this series so many times and he's gone far every time! He's a HUGE threat!

[Jean Jordan]

I also do not mind if the viewers have access to my Diary Room! =D The more the merrier I always say! I'd love to have people to talk to in here from time to time!

[Jean Jordan]

Porsche won the Head of Household competition which is very good for her. To be a past winner and to come back and win the Head of Household in your 3rd is very admirable. I have talked to Porsche but I did not think her and I meshed very well which could be a problem for me this week. I just have to hope that with Porsche in power she will go for Jamie and McCrae as the least ranked in the challenge or she will go for the threats like Elissa. It sucks for me because I like Elissa and Jamie very much.

I have let Porsche know that if I were to win Head of Household that I would not dream of putting her up on the block. I think it is important to say this. Porsche has to feel cautious and worried in this game and for someone like me... a rookie... to vow potential safety could be more than what anyone else is offering. I have to do what I can and right now this is what I can offer her and I hope it helps my game.

Even if I do well in the Luxury competition this week I still see myself in danger of being nominated. I hope there is a way I can avoid the block. In the mean time I have been speaking a lot with Ian and I like him very much. It's funny but I quite enjoy the veterans more than the rookies. If this continues I could see myself being a traitor to these rookies and being an agent for the veterans. Whatever helps me!

[Jean Jordan]

Well it looks like I'm going up! I am not surprised but am thankful that Porsche let me know ahead of time so I could prepare my mindset. I am sad that I have to go up this week but it's against McCrae. If I can talk to people and just be myself maybe I can stay in the game. Porsche told me that I am just going to be a pawn and she believes that I will stay in the game. But you know what they say... the pawn always goes home especially in the very first week in a really huge game like this.

Porsche says that McCrae has been saying that the game is Veterans versus Rookies and that's why she wants him up. Who really knows! I could be the real target and McCrae is actually the pawn. I just need to win the Power of Veto so that I can save myself from this position. I would hate to go home first. =( I want to play this game out and see where it takes me and if I'm the first boot that will just hurt me to my core.

[Jean Jordan]

Shane winning the Power of Veto meant that McCrae and me were staying on the block. What I didn't like about this competition was that it was easy for people to throw to one another. Someone could say they were going to say "Pals" while the other was instructed to say "Slap" so they could get the 3 points. It's a game so I understand if that was done but it was upsetting for me because I do already feel like I am an outsider looking in on the game and just wanting to save myself and better my game.

McCrae has been coming off strong to everyone in the house and it is my plan to stay quiet and not make any waves. Porsche told me before her nominations that she would do everything in her power to keep me safe and I trust her and believe in her. She has notified me since then and told me that she has the votes but would appreciate if I would try talking to some people before then so nothing falls through. I just don't want to say the wrong thing or say something I should say to the wrong person.